Three days later…and I am still trying to process it all. So many “what ifs” and “whys.” In a way, I sorta feel like Carrie did in the Sex and the City movie after Big jilted her at the altar-though I was able to face the world a little sooner (guess there’s nothing that friends and beer can’t fix-thanks, AG 😉 )
But just so much going over everything in my head, my mind has been on overload. Playing the events of Sunday over and over and just wondering what I could have done differently, if anything, or would the ending have been the same every time? Should I not have started the race? Maybe…but I still felt I owed it to myself to give it a try…the doctor gave me the green light, I was doing my PT “homework” diligently…just wasn’t enough I guess.
And I know this sounds dumb-but I am not even sure what to do with the race shirt. What’s the etiquette on wearing a shirt from a race that you didn’t finish? It’s really too nice a shirt to ditch. FWIW, it wasn’t a “finisher” shirt-but a “competitor” shirt. But people assumed you finished when you wear the shirt, no matter what…
Now for the “Now what?” Immediate plan is recovery, PT and cross-training-I can do yoga without buggering the sh(IT) band, and the physical therapist gave me the green light to do spinning classes and elliptical. So may not kill me to do that for a month, that was what I did when I had my calf injury last year. I am getting a second opinion on the knee next week, so any future racing plans will be up in the air til I get that second opinion…
Yeah, racing plans. I do intend to run another marathon-I feel like I have unfinished business with the distance. And is it me, or are the odd years just not good for me when it comes to marathoning? 2005 I had plantar fasciitis and had to defer, 2007 I had my work hell and was just too out of shape and really couldn’t train…and you know how 2009 went 🙂 So yeah, I will try again, the question is when? I thought the best bet would be to wait til next fall. I’d love to run NYC again, but I don’t have 9 races and being a local, my chances with the lottery are slim to none. I’m 36 seconds off from a half-marathon qualifying time so I can hope that maybe they’ll relax the standards by a minute, don’t think I can bust out a 1:37 or better in the near future. And as I said before, considering I am all recovered by then, I’m strongly considering Chicago.
But there are others who are telling me I should just try again in the next month or two if I really want to get to Boston for 2010. And I’m just unsure about that, what if the same thing happens again? Or am I just an unusually slow recover-er? Thoughts?
More to come I’m sure…and in the meantime, GO YANKEES!! Tonight begins the quest for #27. And bring on the booze too 🙂